11/21/01: Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! Unfortunately we are having it at my house, so that means I had to do some serious cleaning today. It sucked, but that’s okay because our house really needed it!!! Oh guess what?! Paul and his little girlfriend, Jena, broke up last night, haha. He acted all happy and so did she when they were going out, but apparently things weren’t going so smooth. Paul called me last night to talk, which he hasn’t done since we broke up. He was being all nice to me, which was weird. I think he’s trying to get me back. That will never happen, though, because I love Jordan so incredibly much and could never leave him. I don’t know what else to talk about, so time for Nintendo!
11/22/01 – 11:43pm: Today is Thanksgiving! All my relatives came over around 12:30, and we ate at 1:00 p.m. All the food was sooo yummy! Then Jordan stopped by for about 10 freakin’ minutes, so I quickly introduced him to people. When he left, I sat around with my sister and her boyfriend and we played Nintendo. Jordan came back over around 4:30, but only stayed for a half hour. I played more Nintendo and went downstairs to get some dessert. Everyone started leaving. The movie Ghost was on TV, so my mom, sister, Dave, and I all sat around and watched it. At the end my eyes started tearing up! I just thought about how much I love Jordan. I have seen the movie at least 45 times and have never cried, but now I can kind of relate to it. At around 8:00, I played more Nintendo and called Jordan. We made plans to spend the whole day together tomorrow. Usually when we try to do that, it never quite works out. Hopefully things will work out tomorrow, because I really want to spend time with the person I love the most. Awww! Hmmm, I wonder if anyone will ever read this diary. In case I die soon and Jordan happens to pick this up and read it, I have a little message for him: Jordan – I just want to let you know that I love you with everything I have, my heart and soul. I pray that we remain together for our whole lives. You mean the world to me, and I don’t know what I would do without you. Thanks for being my best friend, and also the best boyfriend a girl could ever have. Love always, Alana.
Commentary: I’m pretty sure I hadn’t seen the movie “Ghost” 45 times at 16 years old. I find it interesting that my relationship with Jordan doesn’t seem to be all that great based on what I wrote about, but suddenly I’m so in love with him that I’m praying that we stay together forever. Luckily I didn’t die, which means Jordan probably never got to read my message.